This is a very long article and it does take me a long time to translate this… but when i was doing the translation, I really couldn’t stand on what im translating, SM is really cruel! I know that our oppa has been through many hard times but I never thought how HARD those hard times were… in fact, I prefer calling it NIGHTMARE raher that calling it hard times… I couldn’t help to angelstar-kaos030.gif when knowing this…
The fall season of 2004 for Micky, other 4 members of TVXQ and Cassiopeia, maybe, is the most unforgetable moment of fall season in their life. We always heard that, every new singer who made their first debut, will went through many hard times. But if we really went through the hard times ourselves, we will know how scary those hard times are.
On the day of July in that yearm Yunho and Micky left the practice hall earlier than Junsu and Changmin because they want to go home earlier to see the condition of sick Jaejoong. But on their way home, they got a call from Junsu. Junsu urgently informed Yunho, “Hyung, Changmin passed out!” This sentence suddenly made Yunho so panic and he asked Micky to turn the car to the hospital.
When they arrived at the hospital, Changmin were lying on the bed with his pale face. When Yunho saw him, he shouted through the window at the hospital, “Go to hell!” Seeing how Yunho react, Micky know that his hyung is really upset about what had happened. When Micky see Changmin on the bed, he felt so hurt. Actually Changmin has already fell sick for a couple days, he caught a high fever, but the company didn’t allow him to stop pactising and take a rest. Changmin himself also shows that he is alright, but who knows, he got fainted while they were practising their dance. At the moment, Jaejoong who were staying at their dorm still don’t know that Changmin was hospitalized. Then Micky asked Yunho to go back to their dorm to see Jaejoong while he will stay at the hospital to take care of Changmin. Yunho sadly turn his body, and force himself to leave the hospital room.
When Changmin finally woke up, he saw Micky on the side of his bed, he weakly said, “Hyung…” Micky almost cried when he saw Changmin like that. “Hyung, Im so sorry. Jaejoong hyung hasn’t recover from his illness yet, but I cause more problem. Our TVXQ debut, will be postponed again because of me.” At the time, Changmin were smiling when he said that, but it makes Micky feel more sad, because this thing is not suppose to happen to a 16 years old boy like Changmin. Micky turn over his body, not letting Changmin seeing him cried. After an hour, a people from the company came, asked Micky to leave the hospital. Micky knew, company people will not change their schedule of making their first debut. So Changmin will still have to practise to prepare their first debut with this condition.
On that night still in the same day, the situation on TVXQ dorm were so unstable. A moment before, their manager came by to say that Changmin will stay at the hospital for one night and he will be out from hospital tomorrow. At the moment, Yunho didn’t say anything. Seeing Yunho making a hard fist, Micky felt so worry about it. Usually at this kind of situation, Jaejoong will comfort him. But now, Jaejoong is sick, so he is the only one who should take charge of the position to calm Yunho down.
Micky suddenly remembered, a few days before, when Yunho wanted the company people giving time for Jaejoong to rest, he got hit. Micky felt so confused and frightened. The new scar on Yunho’s body still so obvious.
“Hyung, Changmin must have hope the same thing wont be happened again,” said Micky to Yunho. Yunho stared at him for one moment then turned over go back to his own room. Micky noticed the tight fist on Yunho’s hand slowly opened. “Yoochun ah, Yunho hyung will not do anything to against the company people again, right?” Junsu worriedly asked Micky.
“No, he won’t” Micky answered to comfort Junsu.
At the first time, Micky sure that this situation will pass as time goes by. But maybe God was playing a joke on them. On the next day, Micky felt something wrong on his body, he was woken up by hurt. He couldn’t say anything until Jaejoong came to his room to wake him up.
“Yoochun ah, it’s time to wake up.” Jaejoong who wake up first calmly patch Micky’s shoulder to wake him up. Micky cough a bit to respond.
“Yoochun ah, are you already awake?”
”Hyung, I… feel a little… sick…”
“Where is sick?” Jaejoong nervously helped Micky to get up.
“My stomach…” Micky felt as he could passed away at the moment.
Hearing the worried voice of Jaejoong, Yunho and Junsu came to the room to see what happened. Yunho obviously saw a cold sweat on Micky’s face, he thought “It must have been really hurt!” Then three of them brought Micky to a hospital and entered to an emergency room. Junsu couldn’t help to angelstar-kaos030.gif, Jaejoong and Yunho didn’t say anything. All of them knows that company people will arrive there in a minute. They only want to be at Micky’s side now, can they just allow this? Micky stayed at the hospital for 4 days, this is the most kindest decision the company made for them.
People said that TVXQ is the rising son from East God. But God will never make His son went through so many hard times. This nightmare has just begin on that fall. August 11st, after TVXQ sang at a music festival in KimShan and on their way to Kangnam, maybe the driver was in a hurrt coz they don’t have much time, but it made them have a car accident. Yunho and Micky were in the car and they had a quite serious injuries caused by that accident. The hospital claimed Micky have to stay for two months in the hospital to become fully recovered while Yunho didn’t injured as much as Micky. Even though the company people announce that it was purely accident, but all Cassiopeia knows that actually the company people told the driver to drive faster to bring them on-time for the next show. The scar left on Yunho’s body and poor body condition of Micky has become the forever scar in every Cassiopeia’s heart.
Staying in the hospital times were the most suffer time for Micky. He crazily missed his family who were still at US, he often cried bcoz of them missing them so much. Micky was wondering is it kind of a luck that he can stay and take a rest in the hospital for two months. Bcoz even though other member can take a rest for the a whole week after that accident, they have to get back to work, back to the busy times which makes them couldn’t go to see him in the hospital.
The first people who came to the hospital to see him was Jaejoong, making Micky feel so touched. Jaejoong will always appear by his side in his weakest moment. The things that Jaejoong will always bring in that time is comfort and the warm-heart that Micky really needs. “Please get weel soon. We are really used to when you are not around us!” This is the most deepful sentence in Micky’s head that was said by Jaejoong. Jaejoong let him know, TVXQ cant show the best without him. That kind of force, didn’t make him feel lonely anymore. But at this time, he suddenly think of how cruel the company make them to stick on the schedule they made. Yunho often said, “We are DongBangShinKi, we have to work hard!” But suddenly Micky feel, that sentence should be changed to “We are DongBangShinKi, we have to be patient!”
Micky think a lot of things while he was in the hospital. He once even think of giving this up, but then he realized, no matter how hard it is, five of them still have Cassiopeia. In this nightmare of fall season, TVXQ has been through the most scariest time in their life. But their spirit always rise up together. After the accident news, their new 2nd single “The Way You Are” has reached the #1 position in the music chart. All of the members were really happy about this, bcoz they have been predicted by many people to be failed, but now they have prove that it’s not true.
In a day of November in that year, in the practise hall, Jaejoong suddenlt got called by the company people. The four other members didn’t think it will be a problem. But after two hours, Jaejoong still hasn’t shown up yet. At this moment, Yunho got a call from HeeChul saying that “Jaejoong got a problem!”. HeeChul quitely informed the news to Yunho and quickly hang up the phone. Yunho felt something is going wrong. He looked at Micky, Junsu and Changmin who were still practise their dance seriously. But then he looked at Micky and said, “Yoochun ah, come here with me!” Yunho pulled Micky’s hand walked out the practise hall.
“Hyung!” Junsu and Changmin called them at the back.
“Don’t follow me!” Yunho said that and didn’t care about them too much.
“What happened?” at the escalator, Micky felt Yunho grabbing his hand tightly.
“Jaejoong got a problem.” Yunho almost loses his voice when saying that.
Micky couldn’t think of anything after hearing that. He never thought when Jaejoong got called then he will get a problem.
When they arrived at the place where Jaejoong got called, the door was locked from inside. They can only hear Jaejoong’s voice from inside, “No! I beg you please don’t do that!” Yunho crazily knocked on the door, the voice from inside suddenly fade away slowly. Micky suddenly remembered, the last time when they locked Yunho inside this room, he and Jaejoong also nervously waiting for him in front of this door.
“Open the door! What are you doing to Jaejoong inside?” Yunho shouted so loud.
“Hyung! Please don’t be like that!” Micky hardly controlled his emotion and tried to calm Yunho down.
“Hyung, Jaejoong hyung said, if this kind of situation happened again, the people inside must have hope the outside people won’t act like you right now, bcoz nothing will change no matter how you react.”
Yunho slowly calm down, sitting on the floor, hiding his head with both of his hand. Micky knows, at this time Yunho must have think how better it will be if the one who’s inside the room now is himself. Yunho grab his hand tightly, feels like not wanting to let him to have the same condition.
20 minutes later, the door opened. The company person went out from the room with many big body people. When he saw Yunho, he smiled and said “Who do you think you are? The team leader?” then go away.
Yunho have no time to care about what he said. He quickly get into the room, seeing Jaejoong lying on the floor. Except the face, all of his body got injured. It’s true, this is kind of a ‘lesson’ the company gives to their artist. Since that Shinhwa thing, they now specially ‘pay attention’ to their singer’s face.
“Yunho, what should I do? They let me to leave TVXQ!” Jaejoong’s statement was like a knife, ripping Yunho and Micky’s heart.
“What should I do? Yoochun ah, what should I do?” Jaejoong hug Micky, his body shake bcoz of crying. Micky felt his heart is totally broken.
He and Yunho helped Jaejoong to get out from the room. On their way out, besides of Jaejoong’s hurt voice, there were no other voices. Micky doesn’t know what is Yunho thinking at the time, he only knows that Jaejoong once told him, the five God of TVXQ are only them. Without one of them there wont be the real TVXQ!
He really couldn’t stand this more. When holding Jaejoong, he can feel how cold Jaejoong’s hand was. He looked at Yunho, looked at the fire of anger in his eyes, he really felt a little scared at that time. He suddenly remember how HOT broke up in their most successful time, he think of his senior who also has been through this kind of hard times and not letting anyone know about that. He never know that he will also went through the same way. Now, who can help them is themselves and Cassiopeia.
Credit – cassiopeia hk + TVfXQ_Family
Trans credit – hanwoncherr@tvfxqfamily.co.nr
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